Now I Have Inspiration....

I wrote previously that I was happy and thus had no adversity to inspire anything creative. Well, now I should commence being very prolific. Now I should be inspired.

She’s gone.

She just decided one day that she didn’t love me.

She just decided one day that we shouldn’t be together.

I don’t know how long she had been thinking that way.

I don’t know how long she had been “close friends” with her accountant – but they seemed to get together very quickly after she decided we should separate. Work that one out!

How? Why? What for?

The main reason she gave was that I devoted my life to our daughters and not enough to her. I don’t know how much more I could have done as I have devoted every minute of every day to her and our family since we got together ten years ago. I don’t have/know any other way of being. I always had me at number four on my list of priorities – with her and our two daughters being equal 1, 2 and 3.

So now she graciously allows me to have them in my life 50% of the time. So for the other 50% I am lost.

I don’t want to go out and meet new people. I don’t want a new relationship. I don’t want to be anything apart from a Father in a loving family. But that’s not possible now. I must be happy with being a single Father 50% of the time. Maybe she will want to take her new freedom further and just wander off into the sunset with her accountant hero… and leave me to 100% of the 2 people I cherish most in the world.

If only….